tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4528095745108659032024-03-13T08:41:04.688-07:00Holding HaitiMalloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-55328939678091888712012-10-27T11:14:00.001-07:002012-10-27T11:14:37.828-07:00Hurricane SandyA letter from Pere Ajax with an update on the situation in Haiti after Hurricane Sandy<br />
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<span lang="EN-US">I am writing you to let you know of the situation in Haiti following Hurricane Sandy. I just returned from a trip to Port-au-Prince. The situation is devastating. The storm stayed for almost five days. The rain fell without ceasing. The wind was very strong. The streets are flooded. In some areas the water is waist deep. On my drive to and from Port-au-Prince, I saw many bridges that have fallen and are destroyed. I have seen streets that I pass everyday, now are rushing rivers. As much as this saddens me, I am not surprised. With the infrastructure we have, these results are to be expected. The departments that were affected the most were the South, South East, West, Nippes, and Grand Anse. It saddens me that school just began three weeks ago, and already there is another problem for the people of Haiti. There are many people who were still living in tents or in unsafe housing, and the hurricane took away what shelter they had. Hurricane Sandy has left many people displaced and with no place to turn to. Many families in Haiti already had a difficult time providing for their families. Now after the hurricane, it is more difficult to find food to eat, and people who give food cannot provide for everyone who needs it. I am asking for you to please continue to keep the people of Haiti in your prayers. It means so much to me, and to the Haitian people. Thank you so much for these prayers and for everything you have done for us already. It is appreciated so much. I cannot put into words how you have helped the people of Haiti.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-61568045340353506752012-08-26T09:00:00.000-07:002012-08-26T09:18:48.660-07:00"If they come, we will have Mass to Thank God"<div>
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A friend of mine, Pere Jean Fils Chery, posted pictures of during and immediately after Isaac. He is a priest at a parish called St. Etienne up in the mountains. He gave me permission to share some of his pictures from yesterday.<br />
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Yesterday afternoon Pere Jean Fils told me that they were already trying to prepare to have church on Sunday even with many of the benches blown away or damaged. Another priest friend who works at a parish in Leogane said that many of the people in the area had lost everything. The tent that the parish worships in was completely destroyed. In spite of that he said he was still preparing for mass on Sunday saying <i>"If they come, we will have Mass to thank God" </i><br />
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*Pere Jean Fils writes a blog and you can check it out at <a href="http://perechery.blogspot.com/">http://perechery.blogspot.com</a>. You can also follow him on twitter @JeanFilsCHERY </div>
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Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-79240765031121351572012-08-25T14:47:00.001-07:002012-08-25T18:18:18.308-07:00"Oh Those Poor People"<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I was talking to someone earlier this week and the issue of tropical storm Isaac approaching Haiti came up. As surprising as this might be for some of you, I didn't bring up the Haiti topic. They were telling me that Isaac was going to hit Haiti and "Oh those poor people." It is a phrase that I have heard over and over again when people talk about Haiti - "Oh those poor people"</div>
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Every time I hear this or similar comments it drives me absolutely crazy. It's not that I don't think that Haitians gets more than its fair share of bad luck. They do (Earthquake, Hurricanes, Cholera and the list goes on) and its <a href="http://holdinghaiti.blogspot.com/2010/11/too-much.html">Too Much</a>. It's not that I don't empathize with the people in Haiti, particularly those still living in Tents or with unsuitable housing. I do and they have constantly been in my thoughts. And it's not that I haven't been worried about my friends and god-daughter. I have been worried and have been on the phone and facebooking throughout the past couple of days to see how they are doing. And I am sure in the coming weeks I will be posting about the devastating effects of the storm. But I wanted to take a moment to talk about those "poor people"<br />
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When Americans say "Oh those poor people" it's said out of pity. It's a throw away statement. "Oh those poor people." They feel bad but they don't really care or know Haitians. If they did, they wouldn't be saying "Oh those poor people." It's said in a way that implies that Haitians and Haiti can't help themselves, that they are bystanders to their own fate. "Oh those poor people" suggests that they just let things happen to them. "Oh those poor people" suggests a people who are poor in spirit, depressed, in-active, and weak.<br />
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These aren't the Haitians I know.<br />
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At orientation this week I heard a quote from Einstein that went something like "you do not really know something, unless you can explain it to your grandmother." So this is how I would explain the Haiti and its people, that I think I know, to a grandparent - Haitians are resilient. They are strong and don't take things just sitting down. They are the farthest thing from poor. <br />
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There is a picture taken by the <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/15108648@N05/7857551476">UN Stabilization Mission in Haiti</a> of a woman walking through chin high water caused by flooding from Isaac. Its a striking photo and you immediately worry about the woman (and hope that the person taking the picture helped her). It's a picture where you could easily pity that woman caught in the storm and say "oh that poor woman" but then you read the caption. This woman is going back to her home to get her belongings. She is strong. She is fighting back. She is Haitian.<br />
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And just in case I haven't sufficiently made my point, heres just one more thing. Recently the brunt of the storm ended in Port au Prince and there are already photos out of Haitians clearing the streets and helping each other. Of girls going out in the floods to get drinking water. I even saw one photo of a RaRa (like a parade) through the streets of Port au Prince playing music and celebrating the storms passing. I don't understand how anyone can see Haitians and think "Oh those poor people."<br />
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I hope you will keep Haitians in your thoughts and prayers as they work to recover from Isaac and as they continue to work to get people out of the tents and combat Cholera. If you would like to read more about Isaac and its effects on Haiti you should check out <a href="http://srsarah.blogspot.com/">Sister Sarah's Excellent Adventure</a>. Her blog has some great coverage of Isaac's impact.<br />
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<br />Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-9344972181187884342012-08-19T18:35:00.001-07:002012-08-19T18:42:12.859-07:00Am I Holding Haiti or is Haiti Holding me...my Return to BloggingWell, its almost been a full year since my last post...at least I didn't let it go a full year...right? But I'm back and have made it a goal to post more regularly. I recently returned from a trip to Haiti and am starting grad school this fall to study international development. The combination of these two things had me thinking that it would be nice to start blogging about Haiti again. Its been about 2 and a half years since I left Haiti but there is something about Haiti that I can't let it go.<br />
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When I thought of the title of the blog I thought it was a nice alliteration with my name and Haiti's but it never occurred to me how true that title would be...but perhaps the title should be reversed. While I may think I'm holding Haiti, I think that Haiti has a hold on me and its something I just can't seem to shake...not that I would want to. While the tie I feel to Haiti has a bit to do with wanting to help and do what I can to participate in its rebuilding and development, it has so much more to do with the friends I have made and the feeling of being at home every time I visit.<br />
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While its my hope to one day return to Haiti - I no longer live there...so you might wonder what I'm going to write about. So far I have had about 6 return trips to Haiti, and I have a lot of stories stocked up that show the place and people that I know and care deeply for. These stories most definitely won't be in chronological order but will relate to something that I'm thinking about at the time. I will probably also talk more about some of my favorite Haitian things...I can't wait to post about Presitge! There will also occasionally be commentary on news in Haiti or my perspectives on development and mission. And because I strongly believe that you can best learn about Haiti from Haitians, I hope to feature some posts from some of my friends.<br />
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So here I go again...and hopefully it won't be a year before you hear from me again. Also if anyone knows how to change the background on blogger so that it makes one big picture and not a tile of pictures please let me know!<br />
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Until next time...Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-13916114433913943222011-08-30T20:07:00.000-07:002012-08-19T18:16:01.939-07:00That Haiti Feeling<div style="text-align: left;">
There’s a certain smell to <st1:country -region="-region" st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country>. A feeling that you get when you step off the plane or out of your comfortable hotel room that tells you “Yep you’re in <st1:country -region="-region" st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country>”</div>
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I think you can get this kind of unique feeling in all kinds of places. When I’m in <st1:state st="on"><st1:place st="on">Florida</st1:place></st1:state> at my Grandparents there is a certain feeling in the air…and its not just the humidity. Or there is the familiar feeling when you step back in your childhood home for the first time in a long time. There was the chocolate smell I always connected with my summers at camp. Or there’s the feeling I had in college when I stepped out of my dorm to go to class. All these feelings, scents and sounds were completely unique and I could close my eyes go to any of these places and know where I was just by the way I feel but <st1:country -region="-region" st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country> is be far the strongest.</div>
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<o:p> </o:p>I feel it every time I step off the plane. I felt it everyday I was living in Port au Prince when I stepped out of my apartment and I feel it now every time I step out of my hotel room. It’s a feeling that’s comforting that says your home,. Its exhilarating and says “you’re in <st1:country -region="-region" st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country>!” it’s a feeling that also says “take a deep breath and hold on tight because you’re back in <st1:country -region="-region" st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country>”</div>
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Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-85333017507650998452011-08-10T12:01:00.000-07:002011-08-10T13:31:39.261-07:00On deciding my summer vacation...<div>
<br /><div>At the end of July I went back to Haiti to take a little summer vacation time. In a lot of ways this was a completely selfish visit. I wasn't going back to Haiti for any project or for work or anything. I wasn't going to help anybody but myself I guess. Whenever anyone asked me why I was going to Haiti I just said it was for Vacation...which in a way was true - I did have to take vacation days from work. And I'd get the usual response "Haiti isn't exactly a vacation destination"
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<br />Part of me completely understands why people find it funny or weird or offensive to consider a trip to Haiti vacation, or just to be going for yourself, but for me Haiti and my friends there are almost like my home and family. In so many ways going to Haiti to me is no different than visiting my cousins in _____ City, USA. Its not a mission trip, or business trip, its just going to visit people I care about.
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<br />Anyway - I hadn't been in Haiti since last November and simply to much time had passed. I had been trying to hold off my return visit to Haiti till the ordination of the seminarians. You might remember before the earthquake I lived at the seminary and attempted to teach English to the seminarians and they have since become good friends of mine. You can remind yourself <a href="http://holdinghaiti.blogspot.com/2009/10/so-i-have-been-in-here-little-more-than.html">here</a> or <a href="http://holdinghaiti.blogspot.com/2009/11/classes-at-seminary-started-couple.html">here</a>. I had wanted to be sure I could be there for their ordinations...so I held off on making any visits to ensure I would have enough money for that trip. But rumors of the ordinations being in January quickly turned to rumors of May, to June to July to Late Fall...at which point I had enough. Now this is probably a sign that I need to get a new source, but the thought of not being in Haiti for almost an entire year was too much, and as soon as I heard the news they wouldn't be in July, I began making my plans to go to Haiti ASAP!</div>
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<br />Part of this desire to go is this pull that Haiti has over me. For those of you that have been there before you might know what I am talking about. I also think that my experience during the earthquake made this pull inexplicably stronger. Haiti to me is somehow one of the scariest places but also one of the places I feel the most safe. It is a place where I feel the most like an outsider but also one of the few places I feel like I belong. Its a place filled with tragedy but also with a great Joy and one of the places where I am the happiest and most carefree. And I just needed to be there again.
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<br />The other reason I decided to finally hop on a plane and go back was because last November my godson(or is it daughter...more on that in a future post) was born and the mom had been waiting to do the baptism so that I could be there. So sometime in Mid-June I just decided that I would go at the end of July and that was it. I called up my friend (the baby's mom) told her I was coming and asked if she could do the baptism while I was there.
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<br />I told a few of the seminarians, my old Kreyol teacher and some others that I'd be in Port au Prince and my trip was set...I was just going to go to Port au Prince to go to a Baptism, hangout and just be.
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<br />This was the first of my return trips that I hadn't really thought out - hadn't planned too much in advance, and was shocked when the weekend I was leaving came around and I had done almost nothing to prepare - just packed my things the day I was supposed to leave and got on a plane like I was going home for the weekend as easy as that...
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<br />Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-78718163793041380362011-08-09T12:52:00.000-07:002011-08-09T13:12:22.556-07:00My return to bloggingHey All - so if anyone is out there and still interested in reading this I have a small announcement - I'm going to start blogging again. This is mostly because as I search for news and blogs to keep up with whats happening in Haiti I get irritated by the way Haiti, Haitians, the church etc is portrayed...I'm admittedly a critical person by nature...but really if you visit a town and then write a news piece about it shouldn't you at least spell the name of the town correctly? No one would visit Chicago and then spell it Shicago - its just insulting. So instead of just ranting and complaining to myself I'm going to start trying to write again.
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<br />Don't worry I won't use this as my rant forum...well maybe once or twice...but I plan to continue using this as my opportunity to share my own experiences with Haiti and how I view a country and people that I care deeply about.
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<br />So if anyone is out there still interested in reading I need a bit of advice as to where to go next - should I continue writing about the trip I took in November in order of all that happened - come back to the November trip at a later date and just write about my most recent July trip - or just randomly tell stories out of in particular time order? Or do something else entirely?
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<br />Eh - maybe I will just do what I want - but let me know if there is something like you would like to see me write about. So here's hoping that this return to blogging lasts a bit longer than my last attempt...
<br />Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-31933319488081362532011-02-20T12:35:00.000-08:002011-02-20T12:36:35.545-08:00November Visit : Part 2<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight:normal">“Its good to be back”<o:p></o:p></b></p> <p class="MsoNormal">I was sitting next to the window and reading my book, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal">Tale of Two Cities</i>, when at one point I looked up and saw <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>’s mountains and saw that we were getting closer to Port au Prince. I put my book away and just kept looking out the window. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">When I was younger, every time I flew home to <st1:city st="on"><st1:place st="on">Chicago</st1:place></st1:city> I would always look out the window to see things I recognized. Usually the only thing I was sure of was the <st1:place st="on"><st1:placename st="on">Sears</st1:placename> <st1:placename st="on">Tower</st1:placename></st1:place>, but I would try to find my house, my school, that really big movie theater close to the airport. Anyway as I sat on the plane flying into <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> I strained my neck to get the best view out the window. I tried looking for what was left of St. Etienne a rural church in the mountains, that was the first church I visited in Haiti, I looked and found the road that we usually drove to get to Montruis (where the old seminary is, as well as some nice beaches), and as we descended into Port au Prince I struggled to see other familiar landmarks. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Searching for these places that I knew made the fear go away. I was coming back to a place that was familiar, a place that was like home, a place where I would be taken care of. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">As I stepped out of the plane, walked through part of the airport and outside to the bus that would take us to our luggage…I took in the sun and the air, breathed in and thought “Its good to be back”</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>I walked with confidence through customs, and easily got all my bags (an accomplishment in itself) called my friend who was waiting outside and left without any problems. And when those guys surrounded me to help with my bags, speaking Creole to me, I just said “no mesi” (no thanks) and kept walking to my friend. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">It was great to be back!</p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-28390943076000950222011-02-07T17:32:00.001-08:002011-02-07T18:04:22.356-08:00My November Visit to Haiti<p class="MsoNormal"><?xml:namespace prefix = o /><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">So I thought it might finally be time to write about my November trip to <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 /><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. I know it’s a bit late (ok A LOT late)…but I guess it just wouldn’t be me if I blogged about things in a timely fashion. I’m making posts about my trip in small portions – I wrote a lot about it, mostly for my own sake so I can remember the trip in the future – so here is the first portion or two.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><strong>Planning my November Trip</strong></p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Last fall all I could think about was going back to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. I missed my friends there, the food (even the rice and beans), the art, the music, the atmosphere, all of it. I hadn’t been there since last June and 6months was too much time to be away. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Of course it was right after I booked my tickets that problems started to arise…For example, the Cholera Outbreak. Although I was never too concerned about how this would impact me personally I think it may have caused some worry for my family. I don’t mean this to say that the Cholera isn’t troubling but I believed I had nothing to worry about since I am fortunate enough to have access to clean water and good food when I am in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Then the night after I booked my plane tickets I was talking to one of the Haitians that I would be visiting and told him my travel dates. While I’d had this discussion before, it all the sudden occurred to us that I was leaving the day of the election in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> and they were expecting riots. Violent protests had already started in response to the Cholera and there were some campaign events that were becoming dangerous. So I changed my tickets to leave <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> on Thanksgiving Day avoiding the election.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">I won’t bore you with all the other little stumbling blocks I ran into planning my trip. I just wanted to make the point that there were moments that I seriously questioned why I was bothering with all this. Perhaps all the issues might be a sign that now is not my time to go back...Why not just postpone for a few months? </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">But the truth is I had to go. I kept thinking about how I spent my last Thanksgiving in Port au Prince…Attempting to plan a Thanksgiving meal in my apartment - Trying to explain in Creole to my friend Jeanine, who was cooking for me, that I wanted turkey and pumpkin. Being surrounded by a table of new friends, Haitian and American that had become like family. It was one of those moments that I knew <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> had become like home. And as this years Thanksgiving approached I knew I had to be back, and all the problems that kept coming up were not going to stop me.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">“Here we go Again”</b></p><p class="MsoNormal">After flying from DC to <st1:city st="on">Miami</st1:city>, I had to spend the night in the <st1:place st="on"><st1:city st="on">Miami</st1:city></st1:place> airport. It was awful (...but worth the money I saved on tickets). I got to <st1:city st="on"><st1:place st="on">Miami</st1:place></st1:city> at around 10pm-ish and was wondering what I was going to do there all night since my flight didn’t leave till around 7:30am. Was I going to be the only one there? Would I get kicked out? </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">None of that happened – apparently I wasn’t the only one who wanted to save some money on plane tickets and there were a couple other people at the gate. The airport workers left the TV on for us…too bad they didn’t leave the remote control…but watching CNN all night wasn’t too bad. I got to watch Larry King interview Russell Brand.. a few times… which was entertaining-ish. The best part was when a nice airport worker brought me one of those pillow/blanket packets they sometimes give you on planes. He didn’t give them to the other people so I felt pretty special. It was also freezing in the airport so that blanket got a lot of use.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">As the excitement began to mount for my flight so did the fear. Fear of Cholera, protests, and the airport (perhaps my biggest fear of all) </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Every time I go to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> I am terrified of the airport. Probably because the first time I went to Haiti, as soon as I stepped out of baggage claim and out to meet my ride, I was surrounded by men yelling various French things at me; them trying to carry my bags while I tried even harder to hold on to them myself. Perhaps my memory isn’t exactly how things really happened but every time I imagine flying into <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> that is what I think about; strange men surrounding you trying to grab your bags and yelling French/Creole at you. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>So since then whenever I go back to Haiti, I quadruple check my ride plans, I make sure I know the person picking me up, make sure I have a working phone to call them when I land, ask what they are wearing, etc. I’m sure it’s pretty annoying to the person picking me up. I called the seminarian, Goursse, who was responsible for my ride, about an hour before my flight left Miami and made him promise (about 10 times) that he would be there, on time and as close as possible to the door I would be coming out of.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">As I boarded the plane, I really started to have second thoughts… “Saying to myself what on earth are you doing? There’s Cholera…You know mom is going to be angry if you get sick? What about the protests? What if your car gets stopped by protesters? You are absolutely crazy? What if all those scary things that have been on CNN happen to you?” I sat in my seat and as the plane took off – I took a deep breath and thought “Here we go again”</p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-67826395378232951122011-01-29T13:39:00.000-08:002011-01-29T14:17:31.947-08:00Shocking ThingsShocking things happen all the time. I always hear stories in the news about bad things happening to this person or that family and it always seems like that situation is an outlier, it is outside the ordinary, something that happens to some person somewhere, but not that sort of thing that actually happens to people. Does that make sense?<br /><br />Lets try explaining it a different way. Whenever there were bad storms with big gusts of wind leading to tornadoes and what not, while I would be worried, there would always be that voice in the back of your head saying "I don't need to be worried, nothing bad will ever happen to me. Bad stuff happens to other people" It sometimes can be as if those other people don't exist, that their stories are imaginary or untouchable.<br /><br />One of the first times I was confronted with how wrong this theory is and how real these stories are is when the earthquake happened. For maybe the first time in my life, I was a part of the imaginary, untouchable story. One of those crazy life events that you think just happens to other people happened to me.<br /><br />Shocking things happen everyday. You hear about people dying of hunger, going homeless, being raped, abducted, etc. I hear these stories from the news and non-profits but for many of us I don't know if these stories really sink if. If we actually absorb the reality of the situation. If when you hear that Little Jenny was trafficked...I don't think the reality of what that means for her family, friends, and little Jenny is absorbed. Its accepted as something almost imaginary and untouchable...an awful story but not something that would ever happen to us or someone we know.<br /><br />I had a busy day today. Lived my life like normal, went to a diocesan convention, did my own thing. There was nothing about today that would suggest anything shocking. Unfortunately shocking, horrible things happen everyday. I just randomly called a friend of mine in Haiti and was shocked by the story they told me. I'm not going to get into the details of what happened just trust me when I say its shocking, awful and unacceptable that these things can happen. Its a story that one day might be included in a statistic, but its not an imaginary or untouchable person. Its someone I know. In an instant I was ripped out of my reality and pulled into what is everyday reality for people in Haiti or Sudan, Uganda, Southeast Asia etc.<br /><br />Maybe in the past I have always separated those stories in the news about awful things that happen to good people. Maybe I disconnected them from my life because the pain of accepting it is just too great. The sadness and disgust of connecting the shocking event to just one person is too painful, that to connect the story to the millions of other people shocking things happen to is just beyond painful. A pain that we aren't equipped to handle, but a pain, that if all of us could truly comprehend, might just save the world.<br /><br />How could we turn our faces away when we here stats on poverty, HIV/AIDS, human trafficking, rape, abductions, malaria, refugees, etc if we could truly understand the pain and sorrow experienced by themselves, their family and friends. We couldn't. If we really felt that pain, then I don't think their would be discussions about cutting funding to USAID or ignoring oppressive or ineffective governments.<br /><br />Anyway - shocking things happen to real people, in real places. Unimaginable and horrible things. I am sad for my friend. I am sad for Haiti. And I hope their pain stops soon. I also hope that I don't forget this feeling anytime soon. I hope it continues to motivate me. I hope that the next time I hear a statistic I take a moment to think about what the number really means to the millions of people who are affected by it. That I don't disconnect their tragedies from my life but that connect myself to their story and do my part to help.<br /><br />I hope this entry made some sense. I'm still shocked and saddened by the news from my friend and wrote this entry as a way to process my thoughts a bit.Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-79365740346278973182011-01-17T06:44:00.001-08:002011-01-17T07:29:27.131-08:00He came in a dark suit and blue tieLast night Baby Doc's plane landed in Haiti and he was greeted by various supporters while wearing a dark suit and blue tie. To those of you who don't know who Baby Doc is or remember him - here is a brief bio.<br /><br />Baby Doc (Jean Claude Duvalier) became the dictator of Haiti at the age of 19 after his father (Papa Doc). He was known for killing his opponents and using the brutal Tonton Macoutes, a secret police force. He also stole millions from Haiti and after a popular uprising was exiled to France. You can read more about Baby Doc's dictatorship in this <a href="http://www.npr.org/2011/01/16/132984840/baby-doc-duvalier-returns-to-haiti">NPR article</a>.<br /><br />So now he has come back. His reasons for returning are unclear but he has said that he simply was moved by images of the earthquake at the one year anniversary and wanted to come back to help Haiti according to this <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2011/01/17/world/americas/17haiti.html?_r=1&ref=world">New York Times article</a>. Although the timing of his trip does seem to be suspicious with the ongoing election controversy and upcoming runoff election.<br /><br />This just seems to be another hurdle for Haiti. And I cannot help but wonder, what are Baby Docs real intentions? How does he possibly think he can help Haiti? Why does he still have supporters? And where is the government of Haiti? In 2007 Preval said that if Baby Doc came back to Haiti he would face justice...so where is the government now? Why do they continue to be quite?<br /><br />I don't have the answers to any of those questions...but I can tell you what Baby Doc was wearing - a dark suit and blue tie. Somehow his outfit was reported in just about every single article I read, like he was some celebrity attending the golden globes.<br /><br /><br /><p align="center"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 176px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5563175919344167234" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifbLGprDAFxVTiY6co7QLVe6EKqz7fAucKMOLH-VN4txYjbkmq7SxrbAkOg1LBZsDzLWwYRzlmmon9zsEpFEIfmRw1aap7qxfOojbD-Uh8GtslaK0bSFthSXPzRNr94ai7HSTltKXOk2Y/s320/baby+doc.jpg" /> <span style="font-size:85%;">Picture from the New York Times<br /></span></p><p align="left">Hopefully in the next few days, some of our real questions can be answered and we don't continue to hear about Baby Docs outfits.</p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-29415870841253931362011-01-12T03:48:00.000-08:002011-01-12T04:25:05.541-08:00In memeory of the 1 year anniversary of the earthquake, I thought I'd post my personal reflection from the moments when the earthquake happened. This part was written a week or two after the earthquake. I know its a little long but the first section is my memories from the day of the quake but if you're just interested in the earthquake then jump to the section titled 4:53. <div><div></div><br /><div align="center"><strong>Introduction</strong><br /></div><br /><p class="MsoNormal">One of the first assignments I gave the seminarians in the fall for English class was to write Advent reflections. They each chose a verse from the assigned readings for a day in Advent and wrote about them and the goal was to try and incorporate into their reflections something about themselves or Haitian life. These reflections were then compiled in a devotional book that was shared with various partners and supporters in the <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 /><st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">US</st1:country-region></st1:place>. I mention this because last week when I got home I saw the printed devotional that my mom had sitting on the coffee table. I turned to the first reflection, by 3<sup>rd</sup> year Donald Metellus and was immediately struck by what he had written. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><?xml:namespace prefix = o /><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>He chose the verse Luke 21:9. In his reflection my eyes immediately jumped to where he wrote “we will have wars and earthquakes. However, do not worry: God will be with us always…In a country like <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>, there are many problems…We have to keep confidence and understand that the days move nearer and that God is always with us.” I read it and wondered if when he wrote this he could have ever imagined the problems that were in-store for <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>’s future. If when he wrote that there will be earthquakes, he imagined there would be an actual earthquake. Or if he was wondering where God was in all of this?</p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">I guess the following reflection is my attempt to not only remember the events following the earthquake but also to begin to make sense of it all. </p><p style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" class="MsoNormal" align="center"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">Before the Quake</b></p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">The Sunday before the earthquake all of the seminarians came back from their holiday vacation. I was so excited to have everyone back again. It had been a lonely few weeks with them gone and I was looking forward to my weekly meetings with each one and the nights I spent hanging out at the seminary watching shows in French that I didn’t understand and joking around and what not. It felt like life had been on pause for few weeks and that life was about to start again. </p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">I remember on Monday morning I walked to a bank with the seminarian Goursse and we were able to catch-up. Afterwards I went over to the seminary and was able to see a bunch of the other seminarians. I knew I would be happy to see them but I was surprised by how happy I was. That night I hung out at the seminary, I was beginning to take all my meals there to. I spent supper talking to a 3<sup>rd</sup> year named Wildaine. He was asking me why I had come to <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place> and what I thought I would do after I left. I remember he asked me if I liked <st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region> and I said jokingly, “I think I like <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place> now, but who knows if I will like it in a few months.” </p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>Tuesday morning things were normal. I had a carpenter come over to give me an estimate on some bookshelves we wanted to have made for the seminary.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Most of the books were stacked on a desk going all the way up to the ceiling, making it difficult for anyone to use them. The carpenter told me he would have the numbers for me on Thursday. What else… </p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">Oh, I was having my apartment cleaned that day by Jeanine. Jeanine is the girl who had been cooking and cleaning for me and basically took care of me and made sure I was ok. In return I over paid her in the hopes of helping to pay for her university fees. She and I had gotten especially close during the holiday break because she came and checked in on me everyday to make sure I was ok and not too lonely.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>We would joke about boys, my awkward <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place> moments, watched a movie together and ate spaghetti. Anyway looking back on that day it seems silly that I had my apartment cleaned and now I can’t even remember if I paid her. I think she left before I had the chance to pay her. She had class on Tuesday afternoons.</p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">The rest of the day was spent in my apartment at my desk planning for my English Classes on Wednesday and Thursday. I was going to be teaching simple and continuing verb tenses or something like that. I was dreading teaching it…grammar has never really been my thing. At 5 o’clock I was planning on meeting up with the Jude, the other YASCer, once his class was over.</p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal" align="center"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">4:53 pm</b></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>4:53. That’s the time I was told the earthquake happened. I was at my desk when the shaking started. I didn’t do anything. I thought maybe a car had hit the building…maybe a bomb had gone off…but I did nothing. Finally, I remembered an episode of <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">Saved by the Bell</i> where there had been an earthquake and thought about what various characters had done in the show. It was then I realized I should do something. So I got under my desk and waited till the shaking stopped.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>People have asked me how long the quake was. I’ve been told it was 30 seconds. To me it felt like 5 minutes. It’s amazing how stupid I was to not do anything and just sit there. It’s amazing nothing happened to the building because I don’t know if I would have had the presence of mind to escape.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>As soon as the shaking stopped my first thoughts were that I needed to see Jude and the seminarians. I stepped out of my apartment. I saw dust and smoke in the air. I saw cars in the rode that had swerved up onto the sidewalk. And I saw the priest and the new deacon who lived in my apartment talking in the drive about what had just happened. I walked towards where Jude had been teaching the seminarians at College St. Pierre, an Episcopal Primary and Secondary School. I saw Jude and my students. They were ok.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>In this first moment after the quake I know we couldn’t have comprehended what happened. I know I didn’t. I still didn’t even know that College St. Pierre had collapsed. I was looking at it, I could see it had collapsed but in the brief moment after the quake I didn’t comprehend that it had collapsed or what that meant. </p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561271067212015346" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMGuDX3QytZCafd1Z4SKvLiKZPlw22rfbUxO4DZY_txcsCUXXMW5G66qBY6fVKISgdeE21Ro0ICMv2lq2Jn7E-pijX_e4fIKdDN41VihMtGCJo7fRUQ6cMhzKuXPFpII01EJRHRoUmjpA/s320/Earthquake+011.jpg" /><br /><p class="MsoNormal">I recently read a sermon by Bishop Mathes, the Bishop of San Diego. In one part of the sermon he uses the quote “Life changes fast. Life changes in an instant. You sit down to dinner and life as you know it ends” from the book <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal">The Year of Magical Thinking</i>. Bishop Mathes goes on to say “For the 9.8 million people living in <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>, one world passed away and a new, uglier world was revealed.” </p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">Looking back on those first moments after the quake I don’t think I understood that things had changed. It’s true, everything changed in a moment, but for me realizing that has been a continuing process. In some ways I wish I could have those first moments back and pause them. Appreciate them. The time before the truth of what had happened was realized. When despite the earthquake there was still an innocence and naivety. The damage wasn’t known. There was still room to hope and to plan. </p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">I thought maybe we will find away to still have my English class on Thursday. It seems silly looking back my stupidity and lack of understanding in those first moments. Maybe in those moments I was just denying the reality, and hoping for the best. But despite all of that, whether I knew it or not, at 4:53 life changed, for me, for Jude, for the seminarians, and for <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>. But maybe not just those in <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>, I think it changed all of us in some way. </p><p style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" class="MsoNormal" align="center"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">The moments after the first moments</b></p><p class="MsoNormal">After I met up with Jude and some of the seminarians, I began to take count of everyone that I saw and I didn’t see everyone. I began to ask “Wheres Wilky? Wheres Goursse? Where are all the first years?” Before anyone had a chance to answer the missing seminarians appeared. Thankfully.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>Somebody pointed out that we shouldn’t be standing where we were standing. We were standing in an area that was close to College St. Pierre’s cafeteria and there were a lot of trees and some power lines. It was then that we moved to the soccer field as others began to gather there. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>Once we were on the field I was able to truly look at College St. Pierre. I was able to notice the other people around me. A lot of people were white, covered in dust from the buildings that had collapsed and looking like ghosts.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span><span style="mso-tab-count: 1"></span>I began to hear the stories from Jude and the seminarians who had been in his class about their experience during the quake. Donald was the one that ran first and told the others to get out of the building. Apparently as they were running the building collapsed along side them. Some tripped over the rubble but other than that thankfully…luckily no one was harmed.</p><p class="MsoNormal">Everyone began trying to call their families to find out if they were ok. I gave my phone to <st1:city st="on"><st1:place st="on">Carmel</st1:place></st1:city> who had forgotten her phone in our apartment. Her dad worked at College St. Pierre but we didn’t know where he was. Nobody really had any luck. When I got my phone back, on the screen where it usually says Digicel, it said Emergency.</p><p class="MsoNormal">All the girl seminarians sat down on the grass with a few other girls. I was sitting with them and they began to pray. As they prayed I looked around at each one of them; all scared for the fate of their families and not knowing what the next few days had in store for them. As they continued to pray I looked around the field. Many of the other seminarians were standing either in pairs or by themselves. Other people had come to the field. Some were crying, and some just staring, others talking. I heard people yelling out to God, some saying things like “Blessed be God” “Oh Jesus” but I remember one girl who kept saying “Dieu Fâché” “Gods Angry” </p><p class="MsoNormal">I then began to think about what all this meant to me. How should I act in this moment? How can I be there for my students? I was fine. I knew my family was ok. Nothing happened to my apartment. I hadn’t lost everything. How should I be there for people who still had no idea what’s in store for them and prepare for the worst or the best news. Should I talk to them? Give them space? And in my head I began to think I’m not Haitian. Even though I was here and experienced the earthquake, I’m still not Haitian and I can’t possibly know how anyone is feeling. There was even part of me that felt like I was interrupting a private moment for the country, like in someway just my presence there was an intrusion on something deeply personnel. – I left the circle of girls and walked off by myself.</p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">Jude and I began talking…the first of many conversations where we tried to figure out what was happening, what was going to happen and what damage had been done. We somehow got word that the Episcopal University was gone. Jude’s apartment was at the University but it was gone now as well as all his stuff. All he had at this point was the couple Gourdes he had in his pocket. He had two roommates, one Belgian, one French. We didn’t know what had happened to them. Jude lived on the third floor and he couldn’t think how it would have been possible for his roommates to escape. (In case I don’t return to this – later in the night we somehow got word that they were alive but one had seriously injured her neck) </p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5561271842873561842" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWjDtOF7G0nQb60xE9jtAc-cYIcRgdDMdo35eYjdZL9I0gGgpjuINHeqm29vvY8peCEV_SF9O2_51uWXe83r1PpPsNeOQfc_4AdcxrEQFHhCy4BF9EFvI9bX3XQtQHw8hFh-wgmXj7CVk/s320/Earthquake+022.jpg" /><br /><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">As we continued to talk, I remember saying I couldn’t wait till morning. Maybe in the morning people outside of <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> will have heard what happened. Maybe in the morning people will come to help. Maybe in the morning the phones will be working. Maybe in the morning everything will be better. </p><p style="TEXT-INDENT: 0.5in" class="MsoNormal">I remember I had English Class the next day…I knew now that class was definitely canceled indefinitely. What else would be cancelled now? What would happen to the students who went to College St. Pierre? The seminarians? How long would there classes be cancelled? How long would it be till things got back to normal? How long till life started again?</p></div>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-7326273884079325332011-01-07T10:06:00.000-08:002011-01-07T10:25:50.148-08:00Some Resources that may be helpful for the AnniversaryIn light of the upcoming anniversary I wanted to share some resources...just in case you missed them elsewhere.<br /><br />First the Episcopal Church has launched a campaign to raise money for the Holy Trinity Cathedral Complex in Port au Prince. This includes Holy Trinity Cathedral (St. Trinite in French) and the schools that used to be on its grounds. You can learn more about the campaign and donate by visiting their <a href="http://www.blogger.com/www.EpiscopalChurch.org/HaitiAppeal">website</a><br /><br />This is the same fund that I will be giving the money from the Calendar sales to...Which are still available for <a href="http://www.lulu.com/product/calendar/haitian-art-2011/13034243">purchase</a> ... I'm close to one of my goals...so just a couple more sails will help me reach it...hint hint. I'm not being completely serious but I still do think the calendar is a great way to look at beautiful art, give to a good cause, and keep Haiti ever present on your mind throughout the year.<br /><br />In my last post I talked about the anniversary and not being sure how I would mark the occasion. I also asked what others might be doing that day. Here is a <a href="http://www.episcopalchurch.org/haiti.php">link to some prayers </a>that some Episcopal Churches have put together. Perhaps you may want to say them on your own, or see if your church could use them in an upcoming service.<br /><br />Do you have any prayers or resources to share?Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-13638534602567161102010-12-17T10:51:00.000-08:002010-12-17T13:34:21.728-08:00Approaching One YearNormally when I write my blog entries I don't take a lot of time to think about what I am writing, I just write whatever I'm feeling at that time. This entry for whatever reason was different. I must have had at least 10 drafts that I deleted. Heres the one I settled on.<br /><br />The one year anniversary of the earthquake in Haiti is less than one month away. I realized this the other day during a meeting at work and since then I have been trying to figure out what I am going to do to acknowledge the day.<br /><br />I still have no idea. Dream scenario is that I would be back in Haiti at the temporary Cathedral in Port au Prince listening to members of the parish sing beautiful hymns in French and Creole. I would spend the day with the people that I was with immediately after the earthquake, just hanging out at the seminary. But since thats really not possible I've got to figure out something else to do on the 12th.<br /><br />Do I even want to do anything? Do I just want to ignore the day and keep busy? Not gonna lie the thought has crossed my mind a few times, but I feel like, if I ignored it, in some weird way I would be hurting all those who lost their lives that days. Hurting those who lost family members and homes and schools and hospitals. Hurting those that are still living in tents and struggling each day to put the pieces of the lives the once had back together. So I have to do something to acknowledge the 12th. I think we all have to do something out of respect and love for Haiti and its people.<br /><br />But what to do? This is where I get lost in thought. Should I take a moment of silence? Spend the day listening to Haitian music? Make a special donation? Do I want to be alone? Is there a church somewhere that I could go to be with others who care about Haiti? I don't know.<br /><br />Maybe you can help me. What would you do to remember the anniversary of the earthquake? What are you doing; something your own, with your family, church, diocese, whatever? What do you recommend?<br /><br />I am struggling with this and your thoughts and suggestions would be helpful. It would also be encouraging to know that other people will be acknowledging the day in their own ways too.Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-73847613857446919872010-12-11T14:30:00.000-08:002010-12-11T14:34:11.683-08:00Taking Action<div style="TEXT-ALIGN: center"><br /></div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: left">I’ve been pretty quite lately just because when I think about all that is happening in <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 /><st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>, I’m speechless.</div><p class="MsoNormal"><?xml:namespace prefix = o /><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">What can you say as the Cholera Outbreak continues to worsen, with more people dying and getting sick? What can you say as the blame game just seems to continue over where the Cholera came from, leading to protests throughout the country?</p><p class="MsoNormal">What can you say as violence wreaks havoc across the <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> because of politics and reports of flawed elections? When candidates seem only to fuel the fire and not calm it? When you can understand why people, who have been living in camps for almost a year are fighting for a chance for their voice to be heard; while there actions may be wrong their reasons are understandable?</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">What can you say when you read reports of mothers picking up their children and fleeing tent camps because of tear gas being thrown by the UN to stop protesters. What can you say when people have been living in camps for 11 months, surviving extreme heat and intense storms?</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">I can’t say anything about any of this – I’m speechless; overwhelmed with sadness and frustration. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">But just because I am in shock and frustrated does not mean that I can’t continue to act on <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>’s behalf. It does not mean that all of us cannot continue to act on <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>’s behalf. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Last Spring when I struggled with not being in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> and feeling useless, my aunt suggested I make a calendar of Haitian art to raise money for rebuilding. So that’s what I did and it’s for sale now. It’s not a lot but it is a small action I could take to continue to work on behalf of my friends in <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">The art in the calendar really is beautiful and includes some Haitian proverbs. I also liked the idea of the project because it is something that shows <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>’s beauty, strength and hope in spite of the problems they may be experiencing. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">It is available at <a href="http://www.lulu.com/">http://www.lulu.com/</a> and search Haitian Art 2011. The Calendars are being sold for $22 with the proceeds going to the Episcopal Church’s Appeal to raise money for the rebuilding of the Cathedral in Port au Prince and the schools that were on its property.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 266px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5549555591492535858" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEicnxm3_qrazLWAjfnXcG9a8mnPAqGbklgWSrudjyQQgoyu9rZMWSFAyO_O870NsIvr9pzShWfKno5IVUI6sy8DJXDvNAbVFCqHCsMKUhknY6hyE90wFf4UePbTZZ0iLrLbHf0cuSccfaA/s320/Musicians+8546.jpg" /></p><p class="MsoNormal">Be sure to also take advantage of the various holiday sales the website is offering. If you enter the coupon code FLURRY you can save 25% on your purchase. This only affects the amount of money going to the publisher and not the money going to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>; so feel free to save away. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">I feel awkward promoting my project like some cheap salesman but I just think at times when things seem so bad we don’t know what to say, we can still take action to help our friends, so that’s what I’m doing and I hope you will too. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 265px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5549554809912935954" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdIVMtFbMZao8kgKGLNNJCRsq2I2l0BN45JMvN_p46DuRASWX2UVQEzx-fuofKsrTbP9-y0WwES4iKCdqYJ4vKK0PgSZwdbCZdvpqLE_6dtN3AUDuBG3DEhuN5S1e0JCfgEIkh9Q4XgaE/s320/Fisherman+sunset+village+8537.jpg" /></p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-91387473057762255102010-11-12T17:50:00.000-08:002010-11-12T17:51:13.453-08:00Too Much<p class="MsoNormal">After the earthquake, I remember thinking, how could this happen. <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place> and its people didn’t deserve this. <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> has had a brutal history and after all its been through mother nature gives them an earthquake!? Not just an earthquake but what has been called one of the worst disasters in history by UN Secretary General, Ban Ki Moon, and others. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">That’s what I thought last January, but now 10 months later I can’t help but have the same feelings. Its been 10 months of people sleeping in tent cities. Some even with tents set up in the medians of busy streets. 10 months of sleeping on cold and rainy grounds. 10 months of facing the uncertainty of the future. As if all this wasn’t enough, the Cholera outbreak started. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Then within days of news about the Cholera there is news of a hurricane heading directly towards <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. When I heard about the hurricane I thought of my grandparent’s house in <st1:state st="on"><st1:place st="on">Florida</st1:place></st1:state> and all the precautions there house has to keep them safe. And I couldn’t imagine what it would be like to have to hide out in a tent during a hurricane. News reports said that some of the people who stayed in the camps just sat with sheets around them trying to stay warm and dry during the storm as the rain pounded on them. Its unimaginable and something that should never be acceptable. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">And now the news says that the Cholera has spread to Port au Prince. Close to 800 people have died and there seem to be no signs of the epidemic slowing down. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">The night before the Hurricane Tomas was expected to hit <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> I was talking to one of my Haitian friends. We didn’t say much. All we could think to say was. Its too much for one year. It’s just too much. </p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-11142125649927149642010-10-24T08:04:00.000-07:002010-10-24T08:27:22.975-07:00Cholera in Haiti<div style="text-align: left;">A few nights ago I was talking to a friend of mine from <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> on Facebook Chat. He asked me if I had heard about the Cholera outbreak in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. Nothing had reached the news at that point. Of course the next morning I woke up to find a New York Times article about the Cholera Outbreak. On Friday morning the New York Times said on its Haiti Recovery page that it wasn’t a disaster at this point, yet by Saturday afternoon there were fears of it becoming a disaster as the disease continues to spread and more people get sick. As of this morning (Sunday) there are reports of Cholera cases in Port au Prince.</div> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>Just in case you do not know, Cholera is cause by a bacterial infection in the small intestines and is usually spread through contaminated food and water. In this case it is thought the disease started due to contamination of <st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region>’s <st1:place st="on"><st1:placename st="on">Artibonite</st1:placename> <st1:placetype st="on">River</st1:placetype></st1:place>. Since the </p><p class="MsoNormal">earthquake thousands of people have used this water source for their washing and cooking. According to one of the seminarians I worked with, it is still very difficult to access clean water so even though they know they are risking getting sick they might not have any other option.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZCx7kT6UleCdTtcAtqEFUaq5A1tGrQhCerT2YJLZj1LikFqyybovhx1TNQ95d89m4Kmf5jZ89ZqW91pu4vQ8i-sZPk6UDBEhIdiDzvEFnD5ZE6VW-jIyx5HVq6YvGtZAT8lzw783ua90/s320/Cholera.jpg" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 180px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5531634058149585570" /></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>(Photo from the New York Times)</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>While there were fears after the earthquake about disease epidemics, until now there have been none. It’s also the first time in a century that Cholera has been reported in <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>. I’ve included a link to one of the New York Times’ articles <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2010/10/24/world/americas/24haiti.html?src=fbhaiti">here</a> and to the Partners in Health website that has more information and photos of the outbreak <a href="http://www.pih.org/">here</a>.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>I am not educated on this topic enough to add much of my own commentary except to say that this disease seems to be moving fast and I hope it can be stopped before more people die. <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place> really doesn’t need anymore tragedies.</p><p></p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-358334871294571592010-10-21T16:21:00.000-07:002010-10-21T16:22:27.693-07:00Grounded in the States...<p class="MsoNormal">I feel like I am always starting a blog entry by saying “sorry I haven’t written in so long, I promise I will do a better job”…So here I go again…Sorry I haven’t written in so long but I promise I will do a better job.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>For those of you who don’t know, I have finished my time with the Young Adult Service Corps, the group that sent me to <st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region>, and I am now living and working in <st1:place st="on"><st1:city st="on">Washington</st1:city> <st1:state st="on">DC</st1:state></st1:place>…This is part of the reason I haven’t blogged in the last couple of months. The moving process was a bit more daunting than I realized both for me and my dog.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>By moving to DC, I have realized I am going to be grounded on <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">US</st1:place></st1:country-region> soil for the next couple years. I thought of this recently as I celebrated my birthday. The first time I have been in this country to do so in what seems like a long time. I also have been so enamored with fall because I haven’t seen the leaves change color or been able to get a pumpkin spice latte in a couple years either. With these perks of being grounded in the <st1:country-region st="on">US</st1:country-region> there is also some sadness in the knowledge that I won’t be living in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> or anywhere else abroad for a long time. Living in <st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region> and <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Uganda</st1:place></st1:country-region> gave me this kind energy that made you thirst for life and excitement and the desire to make a difference in a way that I can’t seem to feel in the states.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>In my new “grown-up” job I’m not able to do all the much involving <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. Don’t get me wrong I like my work, it just isn’t <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. I think because of this I am increasingly feeling the need to grab on to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>. Holding on to the memories of my experiences there, my Haitian friends, and to any chance I have of a future with <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place> in it. If I had only known when I started this blog “Holding Haiti” a year ago how true that expression would be in my life…</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>In light of all this I have a new commitment to this blog. I will continue to write about the experiences I had in <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place> and those I hope to have, my opinions on what’s happening now and anything else that may arise…if for no one else but me.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>I hope that there are those of you out there that will continue to read and share your view points on Haiti and perhaps how you are holding on to your memories of Haiti.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-40424871061193398622010-09-03T07:07:00.000-07:002010-09-03T07:10:13.202-07:00Beginning the blog...again<p class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry I haven’t updated my blog recently. I got behind on the posts and then just sort of gave it up. The other day however, I was surprised, when somebody asked me about my blog, and asked that I continue writing. The conversation helped me to realize that I still have a lot to say even if I am not living in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>…so I’ve decided to take his advice and continue my blog. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">In the next couple of months I hope to share excerpts from my earthquake reflection some of my memories from when I lived there, various projects I’m working on now, and maybe, if I’m really on my game, commentary on some of the things currently happening in Haiti. I apologize because it probably won’t be in chronological order but simply what I happen to be remembering on that day. </p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p>As for this entry I wanted to share a poem I re-discovered the other day. As some of you may know or imagine the past 7months haven’t exactly been the best times of my life, This is in part due to the various responses I have had in dealing with the earthquake. The other reason is because after the quake I was sort of plopped back into the suburbs with seemingly nothing to do. I was upset about how people treated me, or how people didn’t treat me, being ignored/forgotten or getting too much attention. Without going into too many details things haven’t been great but I hope to be coming out of that slump now. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">I am preparing to move and the other day I came across some of the things from when my Dad died a couple of years ago. It was a poem someone had given me. Those who may know me may think its the kind of thing that I think would be too corny, but for whatever reason it was the only thing I could really identify with after my Dads death. Anyway, I re-read it the other night for the first time in a long time and this time it seemed to express the feelings I have had the past few months. I thought I would share it here; maybe it expresses some of the feelings in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> now and a way we can continue to be a friend to them…</p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">Don’t tell me that you understand,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Don’t tell me that you know.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Don’t tell me how I will survive,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">How I will surely grow. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Don’t tell me this is just a test,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">That I am truly blessed,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">That I am chosen for this task,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Apart from all the rest.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Don’t come at me with answers</p> <p class="MsoNormal">That can only come from me,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Don’t tell me how my grief will pass,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">That I will soon be free.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Don’t stand in pious judgment</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Of bonds I must untie,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Don’t tell me how to suffer,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">And don’t tell me how to cry.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">My life is filled with selfishness,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">My pain is all I see</p> <p class="MsoNormal">But I need you, I need your love,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Unconditionally.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Accept me in my ups and downs,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">I need someone to share,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Just hold my hand and let me cry,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">And say “My friend I care.” </p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>- By Joanetta Hendel</p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-90686985625090560062010-05-12T12:51:00.000-07:002010-05-12T13:48:06.018-07:00Still Holding Haiti: Holy WeekSorry for the delay in writing about the next part of my trip but here is the third installment from my visit.<br /><br /><div><div><div><div><div><div><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">Maundy Thursday</b> </p><p class="MsoNormal">So I’m not sure if there has ever been a Holy Week where I went to all the services until this spring in <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 /><st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>. My first day was Maundy Thursday and I went to the service at St. Jacques le Juste in Petionville…the church that was on the same grounds as where I was staying and one of the few churches in the area to not be significantly damaged.</p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 150px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5470486448443787874" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJP7Na7l5jlfYMNsM_182rWne_KFQoGUuiYawL6DWMLUIs8AhMCTSgW57ORL0QKo5CjiEBBsv4uEwwzzi7-QfbXrrhA_ZiVI8i7AAVDNl5tQF0o4NuLPsqZNADDU8kFMNl66uQ3XHFBBk/s200/Haiti+2+128.jpg" /><br /><p class="MsoNormal">At the church in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> it is usually expected that you bring your own prayer book and hymnal and of course I didn’t have one. So as the service started I was sitting in a row by myself and kind of pretended to mouth whatever was going on in the service…until an older women signaled for me to come up and sit with her and she shared her books with me for the rest of the service…as well as every service I went to at the church for the rest of my trip.</p><p class="MsoNormal">I avoid going to church on Maundy Thursday in the <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">US</st1:place></st1:country-region> because I hate the whole idea of foot washing. I guess I get the point of it but I don’t need to have my feet washed or wash feet. It’s not my thing. Turns out it’s not really the Episcopal Church in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>’s thing either…so I was reprieved from the foot washing. </p><p class="MsoNormal">I will say that the missionary to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> I was travelling with gave a really good sermon that night all about foot washing and why we should do it. It was all about love, loving each other enough to serve one another and be served. There was a tent city across the street from the church and she brought up the image of going across the street and washing all of their feet. The feet of people who are living in mud, disease and who knows what else. The question was presented to us about what could we do to serve the people in the <st1:place st="on"><st1:placename st="on">Tent</st1:placename> <st1:placetype st="on">City</st1:placetype></st1:place>…foot washing being symbolic for some other action. But the message of love and serving no matter what was made espec<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQdv-6oFjy-GTZq8hvzQwE2Hg1TIjT2jSGtDU0MvSozIRHu7A4TotFmkZlXylb4tFfeidTqcF1HHsohAU2zxUdipW4Xpw52hL6tqNoOzkyh0zaPL7ZUQC-X8I-ddwugrNesswTyh2M22w/s1600/Haiti+2+033.jpg"></a>ially real for me because of my experiences and being in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> at that moment.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">Good Friday</b><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">I went to a service in the morning at St. Jacques which was a pretty simple service, but following that service we made our way down to St. Trinité Cathedral. Since the earthquake an open air cathedral had been constructed next to the ruins of the old cathedral. It was more than meaningful to worship there. </p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5470482363069684498" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQzb7POuGB-_SG39bsWjdFnqG9NJAk-63ar08NY3YMVa341XLdnLwMdjTZOwHNqJZwDyFnNd08fypuH6F4_COiit1PwS53Mv36QnIjGeFRmq7UK1fYvrg3d3DPcCpVyNI5B8MdhWZoxrg/s200/Haiti+2+021.jpg" /> <img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5470482960395376546" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9Sr2s__hp6T3OnOg7g6yZ_JlLy97b4SRv9Yj_nenls-apunuLlZosxU4ekHdbiyJw3M8sVU6UdhSpBPmSq-xTcdmDUbxDD2w41kyf2fSgoJg0fMY5xz1tppacn1g-WsbUDmX6nnY5-po/s200/Haiti+2+045.jpg" /><br /><p class="MsoNormal">The service lasted for about 3 hours as what I believe is call the last acts, <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQdv-6oFjy-GTZq8hvzQwE2Hg1TIjT2jSGtDU0MvSozIRHu7A4TotFmkZlXylb4tFfeidTqcF1HHsohAU2zxUdipW4Xpw52hL6tqNoOzkyh0zaPL7ZUQC-X8I-ddwugrNesswTyh2M22w/s1600/Haiti+2+033.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5470483483803060466" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQdv-6oFjy-GTZq8hvzQwE2Hg1TIjT2jSGtDU0MvSozIRHu7A4TotFmkZlXylb4tFfeidTqcF1HHsohAU2zxUdipW4Xpw52hL6tqNoOzkyh0zaPL7ZUQC-X8I-ddwugrNesswTyh2M22w/s200/Haiti+2+033.jpg" /></a>or the last words or something like that were read followed by a sermon for each one. There were 5 priests and they took turns preaching. At the end of all the readings the Bishop would come to finish the service.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKtjTMCg6NsOZekElEKG4PEMOz0qfktpzqVQaHiL2YeYef6JDkRbv75VL32c5I7DHoSit65rRN2zBnbhRr3bhoDusLT-QlDQ8WnFvs-wcWohZqL4OEdb76v03e-_r3goQLaO1pd_ms8VE/s1600/Haiti+2+059.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 150px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5470483994835419010" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKtjTMCg6NsOZekElEKG4PEMOz0qfktpzqVQaHiL2YeYef6JDkRbv75VL32c5I7DHoSit65rRN2zBnbhRr3bhoDusLT-QlDQ8WnFvs-wcWohZqL4OEdb76v03e-_r3goQLaO1pd_ms8VE/s200/Haiti+2+059.jpg" /></a>Admittedly it was hard for me not to be antsy during the service but I enjoyed singing the hymns in French and Creole as well as watching two little boys playing but there are two parts that stick out to me the most. </p></div><p class="MsoNormal">Towards the beginning of the service as a reading was read I turned around, looking behind me and saw Bishop Duracin sitting in a car just watching and listening. He remained there for the rest of the service until it was time for him to process in and do his part. For me, it was nice to see him taking a few moments of quiet to himself, one of the few moments of peace I believe he has had since the earthquake. A time of reflection to think and watch his people worship. I couldn’t help but wonder what he was thinking.</p><p class="MsoNormal">The second most memorable image I have is during the service when one of the acolytes carried the cross up aisle playing the role of Jesus with the rumble and destruction in the background. Looking at the picture is better than me describing it so here it is…</p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5470481234043088434" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgT0vFcXhjGjoSEV5VbTHm5HCl15-7iCqTTQLxph4vQJhGOXObMS8fPMD1dxKL5mAQUEagfsgEZyhe7F7QvujR13DjOap3TB2HwQsrGFqYB5ys5-7PoovZE_wzyJ2W7wriqkFuJXRsSoCs/s200/Haiti+2+072.jpg" /> <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">Easter Vigil</b><br /></div><div>Late morning the day of the Easter Vigil, Lauren and I were standing around the church. A petite old woman came up and said to us she thought there was a service and she had been waiting for it. Lauren politely told her the service was that evening and she hoped the women would come back that night for it. The woman’s clothes seemed to be a bit ragged and from the looks of her she didn’t seem very well off. She also began to explain that her leg was injured alluding to the pain she was in, her need for medical care and that it would be difficult to go home and come back again. For some reason I couldn’t help but feel some sort of warmth for her and a connection to her and I hoped she would make it back for the service that night. <div><p class="MsoNormal">To be honest I didn’t pay all that much attention to the service that evening (I was getting a bit churched out) but instead looked at the people around me. I was sitting next to the same women I had for the past services sharing her books as usual. At this point she was so used to hearing me read in French next to her that I actually think she thought I was good at French and would say things to me quickly in French and ask me questions. I usually just nodded or mumbled something in response. </p><p class="MsoNormal">There were some people I recognized from other times I had been at the church from before the earthquake. A mom who I had seen at the Christmas eve service, then with her exceptionally chubby cute son, another older women who usually talked to the women I sat by, but as the service started I looked and I did not seen the older woman from earlier that day. </p><p class="MsoNormal">The service was done with the lights out. Everyone brought their own white candles that were lit with a fire started at the beginning of the service. I began to observe the different candles. Many of the members that were present for the service are a more well off than the average Haitian so it was interesting to compare the candles. There was a thick long candle, short white candle in glass, candles with holders so wax wouldn’t land on their hands…</p><p class="MsoNormal">Then the old petite women walked into the church. She sat near the women I was sitting with. She still had a limp and had changed her clothes from earlier. I saw she had brought a candle, a simple white candle, the kind that you put in a candle stick. Clearly a much less expensive candle. She lit it and tried to hold it during the service while balancing her prayer book and hymnal. I noticed that wax was starting to drip on her hands and it seemed as if she was looking for a way to make it better while at the same time trying to ignore it and continue to pay attention to the service. Next thing you know the women next to me helped her out and they were able to drip wax on to the ground and created a stand for the candle. It stuck out to me as a very sweet simple act of kindness, the rest of the service is kind of a French blur.</p><p class="MsoNormal">I couldn’t help but think of the older woman for much of the rest of my time in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> Her simple genuine presence at the church. I could only imagine why she was coming to the church. What was she searching for, what she was praying for, what she was thankful for? I wished to know what her story was and was sorry for my inability to have a conversation with her.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 150px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5470479800470015122" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlMEceqg_B6F3OKBrdLfVqVbsdLhQLxRv5jKLADYHCTOrtZSE6dMlBAMoxy7lPUy5-JNOYfEh_zILk6DDuY-Nuk7UunKxb1VO1GWaleHMVjRdEzlBsi941HgsbWW7sgA8NDXFV-t1XzNc/s200/Haiti+2+109.jpg" /></p></div></div></div></div></div></div>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-87048306774582640222010-04-27T11:21:00.001-07:002010-04-27T11:30:59.153-07:00Still Holding Haiti: It's Not All HappyEven though it felt great to be back in <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 /><st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region></st1:place>, I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t scared or sad. <p class="MsoNormal"><?xml:namespace prefix = o /><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">As I went around the city going back and forth to the airport I was reminded of all the destruction that I had left last January. All the buildings that had collapsed and were still so slanted that it looked like a gust of wind could knock them over. Even though I had already seen all of this before it was sad to see the enormous amount of work that still needed to be done, just to clear the ruble. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Driving around also brought me back to my last day in <st1:country-region st="on">Haiti</st1:country-region> where I spent the morning driving around for hours before finally going to the <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">US</st1:place></st1:country-region> embassy. All the anxiety from that day found its way back into the pit of my stomach. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">We also drove by some of the tent cities. Some of them taking up only the space of a small public square and others that stretched off into the distance. One thing that was good about seeing the tent cities was to see the tents. When I left people were using make shift sheets, plastic tarp and umbrellas for shelter and while this was still the case sometimes, there were also an abundance of tents giving people a close to suitable place to live. But its still disappointing to see the conditions in the tent cities and one has to wonder when people will be able to go back and live in permanent homes.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 249px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 177px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5464884455962182642" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiklJ8mfqTSDH3JYzicnddgHbZ_4PfUWiiiOQHOXzEd6eRA9gEUrNreqnWw4Sci7m-It8opaiFo5cb5pU9o3eGuJsAhxhrzfuQwzelYHMkly3xpvV0a-AjXsRQIr-jSTCE8AZna2XsM8PE/s200/Haiti+2+089.jpg" /></p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">One of the things that affected me the most during my trip back was the fear. I was staying in Petionville at the Episcopal missionary’s apartment. It was on the third floor of a building next to the church and right next to a busy street. The night as we were going up to the apartment I remember asking if the building had been checked out and if it was safe to sleep in and the response was something like “We think its ok”…</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">As it came time to sleep we talked about what we would do if there was an earthquake and where we would go. I wasn’t all that comfortable with the plan but it seemed like it was the best option. Then I prepared a backpack with my passport, change of clothes, granola bars, phones etc that I could quickly grab in case I needed to leave quickly. We slept with the door unlocked so we could get out quick. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">As I laid down to sleep at night I couldnt help but about how all this prep work probably wouldn’t be that useful if anything like the January 12 earthquake happened. I didn’t really think there would be time to get out or that I would have the presence of mind to get out with my things or worse that I would just sleep through something. Then I thought about the buildings I had seen which had pancaked. Not very comforting. I laid there stiff as a board feeling like I was back on the grass at the soccer field the night of the earthquake.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Needless to say I didn’t sleep very well and woke up to a swollen bottom lip. Apparently during the night when I had managed to sleep I was so tense that I bit my lip…and judging by the feeling in my lip…I bit it hard and for a long time. </p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">Despite some of the fear, anxiety and sadness, I tried my hardest for it not to become the focus of my trip. I knew that this was what my students and friends had been dealing with ever since I left and I couldn’t let just one night ruin my visit.</p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-25650052805740567882010-04-21T08:00:00.000-07:002010-04-21T08:08:50.801-07:00Still Holding Haiti<div style="TEXT-ALIGN: left">Last time I wrote about my upcoming trip to <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 /><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>, where I was looking forward to returning and hoping to see my friends and students and seeing what has happened since I left. Because it would be probably one of the longest blog entries ever to write about my whole trip all at once I’m going to spend the next few days writing about different parts of the trip. So here’s the first one...</div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: left"> </div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: left"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal">Getting There…</b></div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: left"> </div><div style="TEXT-ALIGN: left">As you might know I was more than excited to go back to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>, so imagine my disappointment when I found myself sitting on the plane at O’Hare airport 2 hours after my flight was supposed to takeoff. There were electrical problems with the plane and eventually we had to switch to a different one. We landed in <st1:city st="on">Miami</st1:city> 3 hours after my flight was supposed to land and I missed my connecting flight to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region>, which also happened to be the last flight out for that day. </div><br /><p class="MsoNormal">I spent the night in <st1:place st="on"><st1:city st="on">Miami</st1:city></st1:place> at the Holiday Inn and ate at the hotel’s Cuban Restaurant (the Airline Paid). I was more than angry and disappointed so while eating alone, instead of completely sulking, I tried to distract myself by watching planes take off, thinking how thankful I was I had packed extra clothes and toiletries in my carry on, and trying to figure out the similarities between the Cuban food I was eating and Haitian food I should have been eating. </p><p class="MsoNormal">Bright and early the next morning (before sunrise) I was on the shuttle bus back to the airport. There was a small scare that I wouldn’t make it to the airport because the driver didn’t seem to know how to get there and kept driving on streets that were dead ends but eventually we got there and after some small delays on the airplane I was finally on my way to Port au Prince! </p><p class="MsoNormal">As the plane began to land I was able to look at the window and was filled with excitement. As I stepped off the plane, greeted by a small band, and making my way through customs I felt so happy to be back. I eagerly pulled out my Haitian phone and sent texts to some friends letting them know I was there. One friend even called me and as we were talking the mentioned how much happier I sounded. </p><p class="MsoNormal">Even as I waited and waited for my luggage, I continued to be happy. Listening to the familiar sound of Creole. The pushing and shoving as people edged closer to get their bags. The workers helping the older women first. The rich men who tried to do what they could to be first to get their bags. The heat. The organized chaos. The hurry up and wait. Seeing and feeling all of it let me know I was back in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> and it felt great. </p><p class="MsoNormal">A lot of my first day was spent making return trips to the airport…seems like the Airline decided not to put my luggage on the plane (or about half of the other people on the flight)…I did eventually get everything but I couldn’t help but be in a good mood about it all because I was back.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 150px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5462607370566938866" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDEx-lzcNpyS4nQxFn5NWrsqpXfJYnMj7cpgs225R5OO8-JJAVhp-cdttQ8_ijJUh0RbjJXnEa0rXIn3JA9WHu2El3S-J-5DX9twZ0N6k0fc-GdKlkqkHTKq7OHBSv_WCW_IwQqDN6cJo/s200/Haiti+2+219.jpg" /></p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-19039739374652267262010-03-30T05:12:00.000-07:002010-03-30T05:14:38.487-07:00I’m Going Back<p class="MsoNormal">but just for a short time. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Tomorrow I am leaving to go back to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> and will be there for about a week and a half. I’ll be going to help the missionary Lauren Stanley and basically do whatever I’m told while I’m there. I am really looking for ward to returning and seeing my friends again and people that I never had the chance to say goodbye to because I left in such a rush. I hope that maybe this trip could help me figure out a way to continue to go back to Haiti or even stay there again on a more long term basis. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">I will be there for Easter Sunday. I was talking my neighbor and when I told her this she pointed out how symbolic it was that I would be there for Easter. A time of resurrection and new life and to see that so visibly in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> as relief efforts continue and the steps towards rebuilding begin. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">I will also be able to be present for the Episcopal Diocese of Haiti’s Convention. It will be interesting to see what is discussed and to be honest I’m maybe more excited about the possibility of being able to see some of the priests I had met and hopefully some of the seminarians, who I spent so much time with while I was living in Haiti. Before the earthquake I was supposed to be at the convention to assist in different ways and I think its nice that I will actually still be able to do that now. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">I’m also curious to see what changes have occurred since I’ve been gone. What ruble has been moved, how much has stayed the same. Admittedly I’m not exactly sure what to expect but it will be helpful to see for myself what has happened since the quake and I think it will help me with some of the presentations I still have left to give. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">I’m sorry that I’m only just now telling you all about this trip but it all kind of came together pretty quickly and there were a few days where I couldn’t believe I was actually going so was hesitant to share the news. Looking back I would have loved to have shared the information with everyone earlier and perhaps ask for help gathering things to take to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Haiti</st1:place></st1:country-region> like tents bedding and toys. But thankfully from extra money that I fundraised last summer I was able to by a few tents, bedding, and toys to bring with me. So I have to thank all of you again who supported me and continue to support me. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">Also just a heads up when I’m in Haiti I’m going to try and buy some art and hope to be able to have an auction to sell the art to raise money for rebuilding but its only an idea right now and I will have more information on that once I get back. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">I’ll let you all know how everything goes. Talk to y’all later</p>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-25109161902805812962010-02-26T08:57:00.000-08:002010-02-26T09:07:21.942-08:00San Diego Diocesan Convention<div>I'm sorry I haven't really posted about the earthquake like I said I would. I'm still working on a reflection of my time in Haiti during and after the quake but until I finsih it I thought I would post a speech that I gave.</div><div> </div><br /><div>Since I've been back in the US I've been speaking at different places about my time in Haiti in the hopes of raising more money and so that people continue to think about Haiti long after the media has left. I recently went to San Diego to visit my mom and was invited to give a report about my time in Haiti to their Diocesan Convention.</div><div> </div><br /><div>Below is a copy of my speech that you can look at if you're interested and hopefully I will post more about my experiences sometime soon. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><p class="MsoNormal"><st1:place st="on"><st1:city st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">San Diego</span></st1:city></st1:place><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> Diocesan Convention 2/13/2010 </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Good afternoon and thank you for giving me the opportunity to talk a little bit about my experiences in </span><st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:country-region></st1:place><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I began living in Port au </span><st1:place st="on"><st1:city st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Prince</span></st1:city><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">, </span><st1:country-region st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:country-region></st1:place><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> last September after being assigned by the Episcopal Young Adult Service Corps to work for the Diocese of Haiti. While in </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">, I was responsible for teaching English to the 17 seminarians and doing various development projects for the seminary, which is called the Seminaire de Theologie Eglise Episcopale d’Haiti. Some of the projects I worked on included plans for a new building to house students and use as a guesthouse as well as an Advent Devotional prepared in English by the seminarians. I really enjoyed my work and my life in </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> and was happy to be there during what seemed to be an exciting time of hope, potential and growth not only for the Episcopal Church of Haiti but for the entire country. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">But on Tuesday January 12</span><sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">th</span></sup><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> life changed in </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">. When the quake started I was sitting at my desk in my apartment in Port au Prince. I had been planning my English class for the next day. The shaking started and I had no clue what was going on. People have told me that the quake lasted for 30 seconds but at the time it felt like 10 minutes. Luckily my building somehow didn’t collapse and when the shaking stopped I went outside to find my friends, not fully understanding the enormity of what had happened. I immediately noticed the dust which filled the air and saw people who looked like ghosts covered in white dust from buildings which had fallen. I saw the Episcopal Primary and Secondary school which was next to my apartment, it had collapsed. My students, the seminarians, had been having a class there at the time but had managed to escape. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">We began to gather at the soccer field, which was between my apartment and the school, a place that would become my home over the next couple days, and is now, still the home to about 3,000 people who are being cared for by the Episcopal Church of Haiti. While those first hours after the quake were filled with fear and anxiety, it was also a time of great calm and faith. I remember sitting with some girls only a few minutes after the quake as they prayed. Praying that their families would be ok, praying for understanding, but also that they knew that God was with them. As the night progressed news trickled in, a little about people’s families, but also the damage that had been done in the rest of the country. The </span><st1:place st="on"><st1:placename st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">National</span></st1:placename><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> </span><st1:placetype st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Palace</span></st1:placetype></st1:place><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> was gone. The Cathedral was gone. The Hotel Montana was gone. All the things which had been symbols of power, strength or stability, were gone. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">The rest of the night was filled with tending to wounded, and attempting to sleep on the cold earth, as the ground continued its shaking with various aftershocks throughout the night. All I could think about was that I wished morning would come. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I can’t go into here all the details of my experience over the next couple days but there are a couple of things I’d like to make sure you hear. One is the strength of the church in </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">. The morning after the quake, Bishop Durcin, </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">’s Bishop, was at the camp with his wife who had been severely injured. At a time when all of us could have crawled into a corner and only looked out for ourselves, the Bishop called some of us together and formed a committee. This group was to begin organizing the camp, where people would go to the bathroom, where they would get medical treatment etc…None of us knew when help would come, and at that time, the Bishop knew it was up to him and the church to care for the growing number of people at the soccer field. Bishop Durcin said that it was important to feed the people at least one meal that day with whatever food we could find, the people there were God’s people and we needed to do what we could to care for them. Bishop Durcin said “We are the church and that doesn’t stop with an Earthquake” To me I think that sentence best describes the Episcopal Church in </span><st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:country-region></st1:place><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">So how do I think the earthquake affects the Diocese of San Diego? I believe that to be apart of the body of Christ means that we are all connected to each other through good times and bad. That others joy is our joy and their pain is our pain. I think we are all called to be there with </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">, yes because there was a massive earthquake, but also because we are all connected in the body of Christ and sometimes we are connected in ways we never knew. I wanted to elaborate on this by sharing one last story. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">When my mom received the position to come and work for the Diocese of San Diego, Bishop Mathes sent my brother and I each a San Diego Chargers hat as a sort of welcome present. The gift meant a lot to me and I took it with me to wear in </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">. On the Thursday morning after the quake I was rushing to throw things into my back pack. One of my seminarians was with me and I stumbled on to the hat. Knowing that I didn’t have space to take it with me, I gave it to him. (He had this really old hat and I was always joking about how he needed to replace it, so it seemed fitting to give him the </span><st1:city st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">San Diego</span></st1:place></st1:city><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> hat). When I was back in the states my mom told me about an evensong that your diocese had done for </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">. She told me that Bishop Mathes had preached and used a prayer one of my seminarians had written in his sermon. I went online to read the sermon and was curious about which student’s prayer had been chosen. Turns out it was the same seminarian that I gave the </span><st1:city st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">San Diego</span></st1:place></st1:city><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> hat to, which the Bishop had given to me. Little did anyone know at the time, that while Bishop Mathes was saying the student’s prayer, that student was wearing a hat that had been given by the Bishop. I wanted to share this story not only because I think its really cool, but because it shows how God works in all kinds of ways to show us how connected to each other we really are; whether it’s a Haitian seminarian and a Bishop or the diocese of Haiti and the Diocese of San Diego.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">It is going to take years before </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"> recovers and rebuilds. People’s lives have been put on pause indefinitely and who knows when they will continue again; when they will be able to go back to school or back to work. All I ask is that through all this you pray for </span><st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Haiti</span></st1:place></st1:country-region><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">, continue to think of ways which you can contribute and remember that we are all connected through the body of Christ. Thank you.</span></p><div> </div><br /><div> </div>Malloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-452809574510865903.post-34909445982406486682010-01-20T07:06:00.001-08:002010-01-20T07:14:29.170-08:00Haiti EarthquakeI just wanted to let everyone know that I do plan on continuing with my blog and will be posting about my recent experiences in Haiti as soon as I get the opportunity to sit down and write about it.<br /><br />Thanks again for all you thoughts and prayers for me and for Haiti especially this past week. Thank you for continuing to read. And I hope you continue to pay attention to whats happening in Haiti, continue to help in anyway that you can and continue to pray.<br /><br />If you are looking for a place to get more information about what is happening in Haiti especially some of the work that is happening in the Episcopal Church please check out<a href="http://web.me.com/merelaurens/GoIntoTheWorld/Go_Into_The_World/Go_Into_The_World.html"> this website</a><br /><br />If you would like to make a donation to Episcopal Relief and Development to help with relief efforts in Haiti you can do that <a href="https://www.er-d.org/donate-select.php">here </a><br /><br />More Soon and Thanks AgainMalloryhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01539850588259228295noreply@blogger.com2